Ambitions…

Randy and I listened to a podcast yesterday from Mosaic called “Live Like it Matters” by Erwin McManus. I truly enjoy Erwin’s teaching. He is very unassuming and practical, yet his messages carry a depth that can be deceiving. He’s been teaching from Ecclesiastes these past few months – a book you don’t hear preached from often.

In “Live Like It Matters,” he talked about people who live in the “effect” without trying to discern the “cause.” Too often, this leads to a victim mentality, where it becomes easier to simply react to what life sends our way instead of learning and growing from each new experience.

Then there are those who live as though nothing matters, that what they do won’t change the way things are, and that life is merely an existence to get through each day. Solomon felt that way in this book, and concluded that “everything is meaningless” in this life lived under the sun.

I’ve met people like this, people who have no ambitions in life. They work in jobs with no future, and have no goals or dreams or plans to change their circumstances. Life is happening to them instead of them stepping out and making their life matter to those around them. When did ambition become so passe? When did Solomon’s depressed view of life filter into ours?

I saw a YouTube video today about the way people view time. Some view it with a past tense mentality, where they live on the glory days of the past. These are the people who preserve our legacies and keep traditions alive. Then there are those who live in the present, for the pleasure of the moment, in a hedonistic sense, like Solomon did. And lastly there are those with a future sense mentality, who live for what is yet to be. For the Christian, and other religions that teach life after death, the focus is future, this life is not the end, and their goals reflect that thinking.

Seen from the perspective of how one views time, it’s a little easier to understand why some people have little or no ambition. Those who want to preserve the past have some ambition to keep it relevant to each successive generation. Those who live for the present will be least concerned with the consequences of their actions. And those who live for the future, will set goals and strive to reach them.

I think we can be all of these at different times in our lives. I also think we can have all views at once, though I would bet one will be more dominant than the other. I see myself as one who wants to preserve the past in the stories I write, while keeping a steady eye on the future and seeking to fulfill the goals and dreams God has placed on my heart – to accomplish the work I believe He has given me to do. And there are days when I want to just enjoy the moment, and relish the pleasures found in right now. So maybe our view of time does affect our ambitions, or maybe more importantly, it affects what we might do with them.

I think we are born with a drive to do something, to see our lives have purpose. But somewhere along the way we can lose that desire and end up in the trap Solomon got caught in – the trap of living for himself and seeing nothing good in it. He couldn’t “live like it mattered” because nothing mattered to him. Until you get to the last chapter of the book of Ecclesiastes when Solomon finally admits that God is the reason for living after all.

Perhaps people who lose their ambitions in life, first lost their faith in what God has for them. Or maybe they never had any faith at all. Solomon knew the truth, yet Solomon lost what he’d known. In the end, I think he finally came around to see the truth again, that life does matter. That loving and serving God matters most of all.

It does.

We just need to live like it.

Selah~

June 2010 Christian Fiction Releases!

Wow! Nineteen new releases this month and so many wonderful choices! I’m reading Deb Raney’s Almost Forever now, and Deanne Gist’s Maid to Match is on my TBR pile. But lots of these are on my wish list. I hope you’ll take a moment to visit the authors’ websites and check out their new releases. Check out their back list stories too. Lots of great reading there!

1. A Hopeful Heart by Kim Vogel Sawyer — An Historical from Bethany House. Can she turn her second-best chance into a golden opportunity?

2. A Love of Her Own; Heart of the West series by Maggie Brendan — A Romance from Revell. April McBride has everything her heart desires . . .except the one thing money can’t buy.

3. A Matter of Character; The Sisters of Bethlehem Springs, #3 by Robin Lee Hatcher — A Romance from Zondervan. In 1918, writing dime novels simply isn’t done by an heiress, so when Joshua looks for the author who’s sullied his grandfather’s name, he never suspects Daphne’s the guilty party.

4. A Tailor-Made Bride by Karen Witemeyer — An Historical from Bethany House. Sparks fly when a dressmaker who values beauty tangles with a liveryman who condemns vanity.

5. Almost Forever; Book 1, Hanover Falls Novels series by Deborah Raney — Women’s Fiction from Howard Books/Simon & Schuster. Survivors of five fallen firefighters band together to try to make sense of the tragedy that took their loved ones.

6. Anna Finch and the Hired Gun; Women of the West series, Book 2 by Kathleen Y’Barbo — A Romance from Waterbrook. When an aspiring reporter and a Pinkerton detective get tangled in Doc Holliday’s story ˜and each other˜sparks can’t help but fly.

7. Chasing Lilacs by Carla Stewart — Women’s Fiction from FaithWords/Hachette. A coming-of-age story set in Texas in the 1950s as a young girl struggles with her own identity in light of her mother’s mental illness.

8. End Game; Big Sky Secrets, book #3 by Roxanne Rustand — A Romance from Steeple Hill Love Inspired Suspense. Big Sky Secrets–a five-book Steeple Hill Love Inspired Suspense series set in the Rockies of Montana.

9. Her Abundant Joy by Lyn Cote — An Historical from Avon Inspired. Can a beautiful young widow find peace in the arms of a Texas Ranger?

10. Maid of Murder; India Hayes Mysteries, Book One by Amanda Flower — A Suspense/Mystery/Thriller from Five Star Mystery. College librarian and reluctant bridesmaid, India Hayes, sets out to prove her brother’s innocence when the bride is murdered.

11. Maid to Match by Deeanne Gist — An Historical from Bethany House. Two servants at Biltmore House at the turn of the century find that God can take your life in a very different direction than you had planned.

12. Manor of the Ghost by Tina Pinson — Women’s Fiction from Desert Breeze. Kaitlin didn’t believe in Ghosts, until she saw them in Devlin’s eyes and heard them in the deafening silence of her son, Derrick.

13. My Son, John by Kathi Macias — Women’s Fiction from Sheaf House. Can God bring healing to a family torn apart by a brutal crime?.

14. Ruby Red; Ruby Red and The Colors of Home Series by Robin Shope — A Multicultural from Sparklesoup. Eleven-year-old Ruby Red sneaks on board the Orphan Train, meant only for white children, with her pet cockroach in her pocket.

15. Sabotage by Kit Wilkinson — A Suspense/Mystery/Thriller from Steeple Hill. Equine veterinary student Derrick Randall tries to help Olympic hopeful Emilie Gill find faith and a way to her Olympic dreams.

16. Shades of Morning by Marlo Schalesky — A Romance from Waterbrook. When Marnie becomes the guardian of her Down syndrome nephew, will she run again?

17. Steadfast Soldier; Wings of Refuge #7 by Cheryl Wyatt — A Romance from Steeple Hill. These soldiers of the skies are fearless, faithful…and falling in love.

18. The Heart’s Song by Winnie Griggs — A Romance from Love Inspired. Two lonely people work together to help others and ultimately find love.

19. The Homecoming; Sequel to The Unfinished Gift by Dan Walsh — An Historical from Revell. Shawn Collins returns home from the dangers of WW2 to face the loss of his first love, but discovers God has set in motion a plan to heal his broken heart.

Happy reading~

Memorable week…

My son talked me into shopping on Memorial Day, and after picking up some fresh fruits and veggies, we stopped at Starbucks, and I had my first taste of a dirty Chai Tea Latte with lowfat milk. Yum! I still like their Tazo iced tea best, but this was good! Later, we worked together to clean the fridge and make fruit salad.

IMG_7399We’re also in the middle of redoing our kitchen. One wall is painted – much work yet to do – and the first half of the new windows are in. They look great! I can’t wait to see the first floor finished tomorrow! Of course, the new windows need new blinds, and that means the walls need new paint, and well…one thing always leads to another, doesn’t it? Too many projects, too little money. :)

Today, while the men were putting the windows in the upstairs, Randy went to the backyard to check things out. He neared the apple tree in the backyard and turned to find a young raccoon staring at him from the middle of the tree! Shocked them both. The raccoon stayed there all day and ran higher up the branches when Ryan mowed the grass later that night. But Randy was able to snap a picture. Isn’t he cute?

Though we don’t live in the country, we sure get our share of wild animals in the yard. Yesterday, when Ryan and I headed to the store, we found a cookie on the mirror. We don’t normally leave cookies on the mirrors of our cars, but the squirrels probably do.

Someday, when the new heaven and earth are here, I plan to play at length with the wild animals. The lion and lamb, the wolf and small child will lie down together, and snakes won’t bite. I won’t mind if snakes are less slimy looking…but can you just imagine snuggling a huge lion without fear? It will be awesome!

In the meantime, I’ll just love the wild things from a distance, and hug the domesticated ones up close. :)

Selah~

Spotlight on Tosca Lee

Tosca LeeTosca Lee is the critically-acclaimed author of Demon: A Memoir—Christy Award finalist and ForeWord Magazine Book of the Year Silver Award winner—and Havah: The Story of Eve, which received a starred review from Publishers Weekly and 4.5 stars from Romantic Times. Both novels have been newly acquired by B&H Publishing Group and will be repackaged and re-released next May. Tosca’s highly-anticipated third novel, Iscariot: The Traitor releases Fall of 2011.

A former model and first runner-up to Mrs. United States, Tosca received her B.A. in English and International Relations from Smith Massachusetts. Tosca loves to travel—Italy to Singapore, Austria to Transylvania, she relishes a great adventure. High on her places-to-see list: Mongolia.

What people don’t know about Tosca is that she makes a mean pot of split pea soup and is exceptionally gifted at closet cleaning. In her spare time, she sleeps.

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Early summer, anniversaries, and such…

CIMG0638My lilacs are in full bloom and the weather here has bypassed spring and decided to grace us with summer a month early. According to Google, the weather where my sons are in Los Angeles is the way it is supposed to be here right now. Perhaps the maps are confused…speaking of confused, did anyone see the pictures of the hail-that-thought-it-was-snow in Colorado? Maybe the skies are confused…

Yet God is not the author of confusion, so I know He knows what He is doing and allowing. One has to wonder though, what in the world is going on sometimes.

My days are moving faster than they should, but I often feel that way. Right now I’m sitting on my porch enjoying the evening. There is a definite connection between the sun and me. We get along much better than we used to, though I have a healthy respect for its rays. Fair skin has to be careful, but sunshine in general makes my heart glad.

Some other reasons for gladness came last week. Randy and I celebrated 33 years of marriage. That same day I heard some great news from my agent and my publisher, which I soon hope to share with you all! Details are forthcoming! A little hint…more books are in the works!

To celebrate, Randy and I went out to dinner to a restaurant that we normally could not afford – at least not on a regular basis. But of course, anniversaries are once-a-year celebrations. So we got dressed up and went out. The waiter spoke fast, so you had to listen well. The menu was mostly a la cart, but we opted for the dinner package. Best Filet Mignon I’ve ever tasted! Of course, it was sizzling in butter…I didn’t ask how many calories…Turned out that Randy’s Ribeye wasn’t quite as good, though he would not have complained. The waiter noticed the gristle left on the plate and ordered him a new steak – a filet this time. We took it home. Then they took the price of the meal off the bill! So we got to celebrate on a budget in style. :)

CIMG0617The rest of the weekend saw more eating out with family and friends. (Whatever happened to my diet?) Then last night we got to reconnect with friends from South Carolina who were here for a visit. Kathy and I have been friends since Jr. High, I think. A forever friend and a prayer partner. One of God’s many blessings.

The kitties have been enjoying the sunshine too and sneak out every chance they get. Though here I caught them napping. It’s so hard to stay awake in the daytime when nights are so much more fun. They race around the house at bedtime, as though the day had just begun. Yawn…I don’t think so guys.

We’ve got lots to do to this weekend to prepare for new windows we’re getting next week. Our current windows are older than our kids. Definitely time to replace them. I can’t believe it’s June next week. Soon it will be time to work on edits for Bathsheba. At the end of June, I should be able to share the cover! I can’t wait!

Sarai’s story is at 76k words with about 15k or so to go. My goal was to finish the first draft by June. Now I’ll be happy if I’m done by the end. I’m hoping for at least a month break before edits begin, but one never knows.

I’m learning a lot about life these days, about being a mom and letting go. This having adult kids is so different than having little ones, yet a mom’s heart remains the same. Love has no age limit. It only grows deeper with time.

The lilacs smell so good tonight, and the sun is slowly setting. I love it when God paints the sky in flaming shades of orange and red. Not tonight. Maybe tomorrow…the mosquitoes have shooed me inside.

Selah~

Speaking and booksignings…

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Last Saturday, Randy drove me to Toledo, Ohio, for a booksigning at LifeWay Christian Stores. I thought you might like to see the set-up they had for me with yours truly posing for the camera – something my artsy sons would prefer had been taken without the posing. But oh well…I’ll just admit to not being artsy!

The booksigning went well, though I’m told that bookstores don’t see as many customers on sunny days. This may have been true for this Saturday as the weather was great! Though it was their “Fiction Day” they didn’t seem to have a lot of people looking for fiction. But I was only there a few hours. They did have a nice display and I was tempted to buy even more than I did. I found my friend, Deb Raney’s new release Almost Forever on the main display, but my picture of it on the shelf didn’t come out close up enough to post here. I bought the last copy though and can’t wait to read it! I also picked up Deeanne Gist’s Maid to Match, Cynthia Ruchti’s They Almost Always Come Home and my friend Kathy Fuller’s novella An Amish Gathering. My to-be-read pile never goes down…

Speech Woodside1Today was a new adventure for me. I gave my first “keynote” speech, which meant I was the only featured speaker. The widow’s ministry at my church asked me to speak at their luncheon, and while I had never spoken to a crowd like that before, the idea had long intrigued me. I’ve been asked if I spoke a few other times, but nothing ever came of those questions. This time, I told the Lord, if I was asked again, I would say yes.

I got ready this morning, going about my usual routine (which takes longer with each passing year!) (Who knew?) But when I headed down the stairs to eat breakfast, I looked at the clock and discovered I only had half an hour before I had to leave. I seriously think someone changed all the clocks to make me late…but I got there with time to spare. (I didn’t speed, I promise.) The luncheon was put on by a local restaurant – they did a fabulous job – and then after some singing, the coordinator introduced me.

For years I have sat at tables with various authors, editors, agents, and even keynote speakers feeling so privileged to meet them. To sit at a table knowing others were wanting to meet me was absolutely weird! Nice. But weird.

I’ve never enjoyed being the center of attention, and yet there was something truly fun about speaking to a group of people interested in what you have to say. And of course, I love to talk about the wives of King David and the writing journey I’ve known for 20 years. God has done so many amazing things and allowed me to witness them! It’s a privilege to get to share those stories – particularly the stories of the women in the Bible – with other people. And I got to give those present a sneak peek at the cover for Bathsheba! It’s still not post-able here yet, but soon!

SpeechAfter the speech, the church held a booksigning and gave a discount to the ladies who bought the book. They ran out of Michal so were going to order more to have me sign on Sunday. It was truly a blessing to sit and talk to the women who came through with books, to learn their names, and have a few minutes with them. One had the most lovely German accent. And two women told me they visit my dad in the nursing home through the ministry at their campus (same church, different campuses.) I’m so glad to know that God is sending such people to keep my dad company now and then. How blessed to be part of a church family that cares for one another in such a way.

I felt that caring in the prayers people had sent up on my behalf as well. Last night before the speech, I suddenly felt like I was getting sick with a cold. I think I might have been reacting to cleaning fumes from earlier in the day. (Never clean bathrooms the day before you are doing something important.) I asked for prayer through our Adult Fellowship Group (AFG) and my Facebook friends. This morning I felt totally fine.

After the speech, I drove to a fruit market nearby and while there a woman stopped me and asked me if I was Jill. I said yes. She told me she used to belong to our AFG and still received the emails and had been praying for me. Wow. Does God know how to surprise us or what? I cannot see the prayers that have been given on my behalf, but I appreciate every single one. Someday, I wonder if God will tell us just how many prayers he received from various people in our lives, praying and caring for us? I’d love the chance to personally thank each one!

In any case, the prayers for today were answered – at least as far as I’m concerned. I hope my talk blessed those who listened. There is something wonderful about studying the people God has immortalized in Scripture. Talking about that to these women, made my day!

~Selah

Believable, 3-D characters…

“There is so much good in the worst of us, so much bad in the best of us.” Amy Grant, singer/songwriter.

Of all of the challenges a novelist faces, one of the biggest is to create believable, three-dimensional characters. The worst of villains needs at least one redeeming quality, and the best of heroes needs at least one flaw. So how does a writer go about doing just that?

One way is for the author to play armchair psychologist—to search out reasons and motives behind their characters’ actions. What makes your characters act the way they do—who are they? What happened to them when they were young? Did anyone love them? Were they abused, spoiled, ignored? Were they popular or scorned, smart or struggling, hefty or skinny? Were they self-conscious or self-confident, proud or humble?

Some authors make lists of details answering 100 questions about each character—things such as: eye color, hair color, age, schools attended, parents, siblings, cities where they live, and on to more detailed things like favorite foods, how old they were when something significant happened in history, were they rich or poor, have they ever had surgery, what are their favorite scents, colors, sights, sounds…the list can go on and on.

But character lists can also be frustrating; at least that’s how I see them. I hate thinking up details for a character I don’t know. I need to meet my characters the way I meet real people. Introduce me. Let’s sit down and chat for a while. Characters need to become as real to an author as a person with flesh and blood.

So once a character introduces himself to me, I spend some time “listening” to them tell me who they are. Some of this happens as I paragraph journal the things I know about them. As I try to fit them into what I know of the story’s plot, they reveal who they are—little by little. The same way I would get to know a friend.

Some authors spend months “living” with their characters before they write a word. I get to know mine as I write. This can be good and bad—good because by the time the first draft is finished, I have a good idea who my characters are as people—bad when a character tells me something at the end of a first draft that I should have known in the beginning. (This is one reason why writers rewrite.)

This is also where Idea Boards come in handy, especially for visual learners. Seeing your characters will help you imagine better who they are, with the goal being to understand character motivation. What makes them tick? The more you know who they are, the more you can write true to their character, and be less likely to have them acting out of character—unless the story calls for them to act outside the norm. For instance, as a character, an English teacher who cares about proper diction is not likely to suddenly start speaking slang or mumbling her words unless something is forcing her to act that way.

The more you know your characters inside and out, the better your story. The serial killer who cares deeply about his sister has a quality that will make us care about him, at least a little. A beloved, godly king, who kills a rival over a woman, will seem exceedingly more human and therefore, more real.

The Bible is a great place to study characterization just by getting to know the people immortalized there. God preserved their stories, with good and bad qualities exposed, making them fully human and relatable. To be memorable, our characters need the same qualities.

Happy writing~