Thoughts on forgiveness…

Someone asked me once if I have any recurring themes in my stories, and when I thought about it, I realized forgiveness is one of my main themes – not only of my stories but of my life.

In all honesty, I did not plan such a theme. But after years of holding grudges I did not know I had held, and learning that to forgive is the most important gift we can give and receive, the theme sort of naturally occurred.

That’s not to say forgiving comes naturally or that it is easy. Not by a long shot. There are times forgiving someone who has wronged us takes everything we have to give. And sometimes it seems impossible. By human standards it is. But I have learned the hard way that without it, I am miserable, and so is everyone around me.

While I know how hard it is for me to forgive those who may hurt me – intentionally or unintentionally – I also have watched what happens when forgiveness is not granted. Bitterness is a root, a poison that sinks deep into the human soul, killing even the smallest acts of kindness, sucking the joy out of a life. It brings slow death to those who embrace it.

And I was thinking how perfect an example Jesus is to us, showing us how to keep that bitter root from taking hold of us.

“Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.” Hebrews 12:3

“When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting himself to him who judges justly.” 1 Peter 2:23

“…Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross…” Hebrews 12:2

“Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps.” 1 Peter 2:21

“And when they came to the place that is called The Skull, there they crucified him, and the criminals, one on his right and one on his left. And Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Luke 23:33-34

“Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive.” Colossians 3:12-13

“For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” Matthew 6:14-15

“And in anger his master delivered him to the jailers, until he should pay all his debt. So also my heavenly Father will do to every one of you, if you do not forgive your brother from your heart.” Matthew 18:34-35

Forgiveness starts with God’s gift to us in sending His Son so that we could be forgiven for all of our sins. Then it extends to others when we offer that gift in return to those who have wronged us. Without forgiveness we will live of life of bitter grief and sadness, a far cry from the joy and peace and love forgiveness can bring.

Selah~

Booksigning in Brighton, Michigan and such…

I will be signing copies of Abigail at
His Bible and Book House
106 W Main St
Brighton, MI 48116
(810) 227-2925
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Time: 12:00-2:00 p.m.

If you live in the area, please come and introduce yourself! I’d love to meet you.

I had lunch with a friend last Friday and stopped in at our local Family Christian Stores, which resulted in another booksigning possibility, but that is still in the works. There is also a possibility I may be traveling to Lake Orion for a booksigning there as well. Future events will be posted as they become available.

I’ve been doing a lot of research on Abram and Sarai and ancient Mesopotamia, which is truly interesting. In the midst of that, I’ve been brainstorming a new idea, and am hoping it works out as well as I think it might. I’ve found myself writing two books at the same time, flipping from Sarai’s story to my proposal idea. It’s interesting trying to switch mental gears to a somewhat different era and a whole new set of characters, but right now, it’s fun and a bit of a challenge. I like a good challenge, as long as it’s not overwhelming!

Sometimes, I marvel at how good God is. I’m sure I don’t revel in that fact nearly enough, but as I pondered Abram’s encounter with God today and what it must have been like to meet Him face to face, I wondered how that would have changed Abram. How it would change me. Abram was called God’s friend, and one commentator said it was because of Abram’s faith, but I don’t think that was the only reason. I think the main reason Abram was called God’s friend was because Abram did what God asked him to do.

Jesus told his disciples “You are my friends if you do what I command.” John 15:14

Abram was God’s friend because he did what God commanded.

So much to be learned from research. I love it when I can apply it to my life.

Selah~

Sanctity of Human Life

A pile of lovely research books came in the mail for me this week, and I’ve been diving into the study of ancient Mesopotamia, which will coincide with the next three books I’m working on in The Wives of the Patriarchs series. I love research books, especially those with pictures! (Perhaps I’m still a kid at heart.) But in truth I’m a visual learner, and pictures of places, geography, archeology, and artifacts of the era do a lot to help me see a story. So do books on culture and daily life – things such as marriage and funeral customs and what kinds of gods did they serve?

In searching through one of the books, I looked up death and funerary practices. (Not intended to be morbid, simply part of understanding the people of the time.) Archeologists have found cemeteries in Mesopotamia with male and female adults and children. Young children were sometimes buried in the same graves as adults, and in some cases there is evidence that the adults and children were related by blood.
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“Babies, however, were normally not buried in cemeteries but either under the floors of private houses, often in cooking pots (sometimes with a hint of human sacrifice), or simply tossed onto rubbish dumps as if they were regarded as sub-human. Adults were also buried beneath the floors of houses, but only rarely on rubbish tips.” An Illustrated Dictionary Gods, Demons and Symbols of Ancient Mesopotamia pg. 59-60. Emphasis mine

Abortion and infanticide are not new to our culture or our day. As Solomon so wisely said, “There is nothing new under the sun.” And in truth, apart from the grace of God, human nature does not change.

Isaiah 49:15-16 says, “Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you. Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;”

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.” Psalm 139:13-16 ESV

This Sunday, January 24, 2010, is Sanctity of Human Life Sunday, the day set aside to honor human life, and to remind us of how many lives abortion has cost us.

God, in His timelessness, sees the babies who were tossed on those rubbish heaps or sacrificed in cooking pots in ancient Mesopotamia, and He sees the unformed body of every child’s unborn life today. Their names, which He knows even if they’ve gone unnamed by human parents, are engraved on the palms of His hands.

May we learn to value human life as much as He does. And may archeologists in future generations find a better story of our era than we have discovered from ages past.

Selah~

Book signing January 31, 2010 – and such…

I will be signing copies of Abigail and/or Michal (which will be available for purchase) at
Woodside Bible Church
6600 Rochester Rd
Troy, MI 48085-1352
(248) 879-8533

Sunday, January 31, 2010
9:30 a.m. – 1:00 p.m.

If you live in the area, I hope you’ll stop buy. I’d love to meet you!

The weekend flew by, as usual weekends go. I’ve been working hard on my de-cluttering project. Saturday I spent hours cleaning out one small section of our “office”, which is really a catch-all junk room, soon to be a guest bedroom, if I can keep up the momentum. Our bedroom is looking pretty nice, though I still have some dusting to do. We got rid of four boxes of books, which I hope the church library can put to good use.

I’m working on the first draft of Sarai, tentative title for book one in The Wives of the Patriarchs series. First drafts are always hard for me, but where I usually get stuck is when I haven’t done enough research. So I spent time on Amazon and CBD.com searching for history books and commentaries on ancient Mesopotamia and Genesis. My order should come tomorrow, and I can’t wait to dive into the reading. After three days of hard work on the house (and not as much as I’d like to show for it), I’ve been completely exhausted. Feels like I’ve packed up enough to move (but far from it). A massage sounds so good right now!

I also started working with plot and characters for a new story last night. It’s always fun to start a new project, to see where the story takes me. I’m hoping to have a new proposal for my agent in the next few months. I would love to keep writing biblical fiction for a long time to come, though I also toy with writing other historical fiction as well someday.

I finished a column for our church newspaper. I’ve changed the focus from reviewing Christian fiction (only because I’d run out of books to review and I can’t read fast enough for three books a month). So I’m writing about writing Christian fiction. Funny how inadequate I still feel about teaching or writing about writing. Seems like I should have more books to my name or more years under my writing belt to be qualified. Maybe we never feel qualified. Still, I hope someone benefits from what I’ve learned.

The fire is going in the fireplace, and I think it’s time for some chamomile tea and our favorite TV show. Hopefully, my cleaning spree will start to look like it’s making headway, and I’ll be less exhausted in the process.

Happy Monday~

This and that…

I’m always amazed at how fast time flies. Like the quote from a movie Julie & Julia about deadlines, “I like to wave at them as they whiz past.” (Not quoting that exactly.) Except I don’t like to wave at time passing me by – I like to enjoy each moment and don’t know how so many moments disappear while I’m not looking.

Oh well…

In other thoughts – I have a cat shoving his face into my shoulder and generally telling me to get out of the chair and do something or hug him or feed him or something right now! I still have not mastered cat-speak, but I can tell you he is being pushy. Probably wants me to put on music. They don’t seem to like a quiet house.

I’ve spent most of the week at home, but today I tackled the mall to return a scarf I ordered online (wrong color.) I also had two rewards cards ($10 each) from Godiva that were going to expire February 5, 2010, so of course, I had to use them! I got a dark chocolate raspberry frozen drink – sweet decadence in a cup – yum! Then I picked up a dark chocolate coconut macaroon for Randy and picked out a box full of dark chocolate truffles. I did try a free sample of white chocolate strawberry and actually liked it. But dark chocolate is better.

Then I went to the grocery/department store (out of salted butter – and unsalted on toast does not taste good) and also looked at new cushions for our kitchen chairs, but decided to wait and check other stores. I want something cushy and comfortable that won’t stain the first time someone spills food on it. I could be looking a while. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know!

The next trip to the post office found me having to renew my P.O. Box and also found out that due to new security guidelines pre-stamped packages weighing over 13 ounces have to be taken to the window – can’t just be dropped in the box. If you buy the postage online, no problem, but if you buy stamps and put them on a box weighing more than 13 ounces, you get to stand in line to drop it off. I mail a lot of books and I buy stamps ahead so I could just drop them in the drop box. This guideline has been there before, I guess, but I didn’t recall seeing it. Fortunately, both Michal and Abigail weigh less than 13 ounces, so I’m safe! USPS won’t allow you to buy postage online for Media Mail, but supposedly stamps.com will. I’m going to check it out for future use.

Our son has gotten us hooked on a TV show that is free for Netflix viewers. Best characterization I’ve seen in ages for a TV show. The writers know what they’re doing – at least so far for Season 1. The show is Friday Night Lights, and while it doesn’t portray everything perfectly – as in it assume kids in high school will sleep with their boyfriends/girlfriends – there is a lot of good in it. It seems very true to small town life, especially a town too wrapped up in football. Check it out!

I was kind of hoping we would go to the Auto Show this coming week, but am not sure that will happen. I haven’t been in years and have been thinking it’s time to do some things like this again – maybe visit the Detroit art and sciences museums and Greenfield Village is always fun. Maybe I’m just tired of winter and cold and need to get out of the house.

Discovered a free phone application that allows me to download like over 24,000 free books (hopefully all in the public domain!) I’m reading Alice in Wonderland on the phone, which is kind of fun. It does allow for much faster reading, which I suppose a Kindle would do as well. I would like to get an e-reader someday, especially for travel, but was waiting to see if they become a bit more standardized. A Kindle wouldn’t fit in my pocket though to take anywhere, which is the nice thing about the phone.

I better go see what we’re doing for dinner. Gotta check with my guys to see what they want. Get to see my sis and her family with my folks tomorrow. Looking forward to it.

Selah~

Abigail’s Fig Cake (Jill’s version)

My pack rat de-cluttering started out well this week, but has since taken a detour as I’ve found that cleaning tends to be exhausting work! Besides, I’ve had research and writing I needed to do and yesterday decided it was time to try out some new recipes. So I baked bread (with a mix in the bread-maker, lest you think I’m overly ambitious – besides, on my own, bread does not rise for me), apple pie (this I usually do quite well), and Abigail’s Fig Cake (a recipe I found in a little book called Healing Foods from the Bible.

Now normally, I can multitask, but there are some things I don’t do well and one is talking on the phone and following a recipe. I’ve had jellos not set due to this unfortunate distraction, and ingredients get miscounted. In this case, I needed to cut a recipe by thirds, which led to my version of Abigail’s Fig Cakes.

It all started when I bought fig preserves instead of real figs. I knew I wanted to make this recipe months ago, so I bought the jar of preserves in anticipation. So I pulled the jar from the cupboard and opened the book to the recipe. Then I put headphones on and attached them to my phone and dialed a friend. So far, so good.

First ingredients were butter and honey. A cup of butter and a half a cup of honey. No problem. I tossed them in the mixer and turned it on waiting for it to get creamy. Next ingredients, fig preserves. Three cups of fig preserves, which meant I should have bought three jars, not one. Oops.

I looked at my butter honey mixture. Too late to separate. But wait, honey butter on toast is a good thing! So I measured it into thirds and saved two-thirds out for later use on toast, leaving one half cup in the mixer. All good.

I poured the fig preserves into the measuring cup. Exactly a cup. Whew! Next ingredient – 5 egg yolks. So I got the carton of eggs from the frig and started separating eggs from the whites in two separate glass dishes.

Somewhere during the conversation with my friend, my mind registered the yolks as whites. It also failed to notice that I needed to cut the eggs by thirds as well. Double oops.

Before I realized my mistake, I had tossed five egg WHITES into the batter.

At this point I paused. Um…what did I just do? I glanced at the recipe again while trying to keep myself focused on our conversation without distraction because I really did want to talk to my friend. But the recipe said I was supposed to beat the egg whites and fold them in last. I had just dumped them in unbeaten – ahead of the yolks, the flour, the yogurt, or the cinnamon, raisins, and nuts. Oh boy…

The rest of the recipe I managed to cut to the right amounts, and since it seemed foolish to toss it out unbaked, I finished adding the ingredients and popped it into the oven. Baking time was supposed to be 90 minutes but given I’d cut the recipe and it only fit into a 9 x 9 pan, I checked it at 60. It could have used 45-50 as the edges were a bit overdone. But overall – the fig cake was a success! I had two pieces, which I should not have done (small pieces), and it tasted like more.

So here is the original along with my version of Abigail’s Fig Cake. Maybe I’ll try the book’s version next time. Then again maybe not…

CIMG0560Abigail’s Fig Cake

1 cup butter
1/2 cup honey
3 cups figs or fig preserves
5 egg yolks, beaten (save whites)
3 cups whole-wheat flour
1 cup plain yogurt
1 cup walnuts
1 cup raisins
1 1/2 T cinnamon
5 egg whites, beaten

Probably fits in 9 x 13 pan – bake at 350 for 60-90 minutes. Check after 60 with toothpick.
Mix as described below

Cream butter and honey together before adding the beaten egg yolks. Stir until smooth. Add flour and yogurt, alternating. Add nuts, raisins, and cinnamon. Fold in beaten egg whites. Pour into greased cake pan. Bake as directed above. Serve with honey.

(Jill’s altered version)

1/3 cup butter
less than 1/4 cup honey
1 cup fig preserves
2-3 egg yolks
1 cup whole wheat flour
1/3 cup plain yogurt
1/3 cup pecans (because I couldn’t find the walnuts)
1/3 cup raisins
1/2 T cinnamon
5 egg whites

Spray 9 x 9 pan with cooking spray and bake at 350 for about 45-50 minutes.

Cream butter and honey. Add figs, egg whites, egg yolks, flour, and yogurt. Beat until smooth. Add chopped nuts raisins and cinnamon. Pour into greased pan. Bake as directed above.

Enjoy~

Confessions of a pack rat…

I am a pack rat. I’ve known this about myself for some time now. The tendency was not inherited. My grandmother had a saying, “If you haven’t used it in a year, get rid of it.” When my grandmother died, she left very little for her kids to go through. She had already divided up the things she had kept that mattered to her, which in the end were few.

My mom learned a lot from her mom. Several years ago my parents downsized and let us kids go through their house and take what we wanted. Some things Mom kept, but a year or so ago she went through them again and divided them among her three children. She is not one to hang on to possessions overlong.

My sister moved several times over the years and learned to get rid of a lot in the process. Some of it she handed down to me and to our kids. My brother has also passed on a number of household items. (They tell me this clutter problem is ongoing. The clutter has ways of disguising itself as needed items and they end up having to de-clutter all over again.) Apparently, the cure is to move a lot…

So after collecting things from my grandma, my mom, my brother, and my sister, because they were needed or cool or well, you couldn’t just throw it out…then there are the things we’ve collected from my in-laws, who were even bigger pack rats than I am…I must confess, we have accumulated much “stuff.”

(I once knew someone who tossed perfectly good “stuff” into the trash when she was through with it – nice stuff like clothes and such – stuff I would leave in a bag waiting to donate it for six months while she was clutter free instantly. I would have been clutter free too, if I’d driven to the Salvation Army drop box right away…but a person has to be ready to part with these things. It’s one thing to bag it up and a totally different thing to actually move it out of your house and release it into the “doesn’t belong to me anymore” world.)

The fact is, pack rats tend toward the sentimental and sentimental people save things. We look at nick knacks and pictures and drawings and old shoes and antiquated clothes and ancient furniture or magazines or books and we want to hang onto them, sometimes for posterity, sometimes for later research (we tell ourselves we are going to do) and sometimes just because the thing belonged to someone we are related to.

The reasons aren’t bad, but I’ve been thinking lately that we can’t take these things with us when we die, and most of it wouldn’t fit in a smaller home either. Seems like the bigger houses we live in the more stuff we get, whether it’s bought, found, or given, to put in every available space. (Maybe we secretly like to feel surrounded by things, though in truth it just makes life more crowded.)

I’ve noticed this is true in the bedroom I’ve been de-cluttering this afternoon. The room is a nice size, but over the years I’ve managed to cram more furniture, more books, more “I’ll take care of that later” clutter into so many places that my husband was complaining (good-naturedly) the other day that he could barely walk past one spot without stubbing his toes. Especially if he tried walking there in the dark. If I didn’t have so many “papers to look at later” stacked on the floor along with a stack of clothes on the chair, several stuffed animals that had lost their way, a purse, some shoes…let’s just say he had a point!

So I’ve begun to tackle my 2010 goal of de-cluttering and down-sizing all of the stuff in this house. By year’s end, I would love to be able to say I’ve completed the task. Unlike my grandma, my measuring stick for keeping things is more than a year, but there is some wisdom in her words. Still, there is no need to be hasty – I might need that unworn sweater a year from now…

My measuring line is “If you wouldn’t move it to a condo on the beach in California (my dream home), get rid of it.” :)

I’ll let you know how well it works as time passes…

Selah~