Does God Ever Get Tired of the Same Prayers?
I picked up an old journal last night that had only a few entries. I tend to journal in various notebooks and this one had gotten set aside. Last entry date was in October 2003.
Well earlier that year, in September 2003, I had written a lengthy prayer to the Lord asking Him to help my writing. In that prayer I begged Him to give me an open door to a writing ministry, to bless my work, to sell my books, and so on. It is a familiar prayer, one that I could have written today or five years ago. It’s an ongoing prayer that doesn’t change much.
In the reading of that prayer last night, I had to wonder if God ever grows tired of hearing me ask for the same things over and over again. Surely by now He has my desires memorized, could recite the prayer to me before I utter the words. But of course, God has known these desires of mine since before I was born. He is not surprised that I’m starting to sound like a broken record.
I’ve been studying Rachel and Leah these past two weeks and it occurred to me that both women also uttered repetitive prayers. Leah prayed that her husband would love her. With the birth of each son, she hoped that maybe now her dream for Jacob’s love would come true. It didn’t. But Leah learned to praise the Lord in spite of Jacob’s lack of love for her.
Rachel begged God for a child. Year after year she watched her sister bear children while she remained barren. When at last Joseph was born, she was still not satisfied. Joseph’s name means “The Lord increases”, and the first words out of Rachel’s mouth after his birth were, “May the Lord give me another son.” He did, but it cost Rachel her life.
In a sense, all of our desires can fall into these two categories, but since writing is what I know, I’ll apply it there.
For years I have begged God to fulfill my dreams of publishing books. I’ve watched my sisters (and brothers) in Christ bear book after book, while I sit waiting – barren.
What I don’t know is – those sisters in Christ may have other issues, like Leah, that go unfulfilled in their lives. Perhaps God looks on them with favor in publishing because He sees that they are lacking something vital somewhere else. Perhaps.
Other authors may be more like Rachel, who when God finally gives them a book contract, they are not satisfied. They want another and another and are already thinking about the next book without really being grateful for the first one.
God tells us to keep asking, even going so far as to give us examples of people who got what they wanted if they were persistent. But I think there is a lesson here in how we should do that asking.
So similar in content are my prayers that they could be copied and pasted from one year to the next with one exception. God is slowly maturing me along the way, and the prayers that were once desperate are now a little more willing to surrender to His ways. A little more grateful and satisfied with where He has placed me now, realizing that His ways are not mine and He may or may not fulfill my dreams.
But if He does, I don’t want to be like Rachel who barely said “thank you” before jumping right into “give me more”. I want to reflect Leah’s joy in the Lord, whether my desires are fulfilled or not.




